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I think I may have inadvertently angered America’s favorite Personal Trainer today.    Last week  Bob Harper made a comment on MyTrainerbob.com – asking for feedback on his issuing challenges only on his web site.  He’s having time management issues – a portion of that blog can be found below.

Bob’s request – from Please Login or Register to see the link.

I’m thinking about just working from this website and not facebook anymore.  Having everyone come here everyday for their Challenges and comments might be the best idea so when I have my morning coffee and do my posts, I only have to go to one site, mytrainerbob.com…..I welcome comments.

My response was:

I just read your Blog over @MyTrainerbob.com. There are applications that you can add to your web site that will allow you to post to both Twitter and Facebook at the same time. If you look at Willosweb.com – you can see a link at the bottom of each posts where you can “share” the post you’ve made. If you had your web site developers add this feature to your web site it would be EASY PEASY for you to post challenges to MyTrainerbob.com – and with one click post a link to your blog on Facebook and Twitter.

Life doesn’t have to be so difficult – you just need to find the right tools to make things easier. The LAST thing we want {as your fans} – is for you to feel overwhelmed and give up entirely. Remember there is no shame in asking for HELP – if you need someone to take care of some of the administrative tasks – then find a terrific assistant that shares your same philosophies in life. I’m sure there are thousands of volunteers already

Bob’s response via his Facebook page  was:

WT Frack?

Appreciate the suggestions Jaci…I do actually have an amazing assistant that I love and couldn’t live without

One other fan of Bob took this the wrong way – she had joked around about becoming his assistant the day before – and responded to this with “Now I feel awful”.  Which made me think – is Bob being snarky in his response to me?  Have I angered our beloved Bob somehow?

The only thing I can think of that might have made him upset with me – is about a month ago I asked how he felt about Jillian Michales new line of weight loss supplements.  I was angry at the time over the announcement – and still think it’s a bad idea for jills to get messed up in that.  But – perhaps my questioning Bob to comment just angered him?

I think people surrounding the biggest Loser have always given my blog more power than it actually has.  Sure – at one point in time I was getting 5,000 readers on a regular basis.   So perhaps there was a small influence with some of the show fans there.  But really – no one even cares about what I say any more.  So why get mad?

For what it’s worth – my response to Bob was heartfelt – and I truly thought I was offering a helpful solution to his dilemma.   Perhaps the lesson learned is that I should just mind my own business and stop trying to save the world.

I’m too frackin’ nice.

I just watched the first episode this morning – and I’m not sure I’m 100% happy with the way JD Roth and the other Producers are portraying our curvy sisters. Rather than showing confident women – I see them battling self esteem issues. The swooning over a first hand hold was emotional – yes – but certainly doesn’t show the confident woman Luke says he’s looking for. I’ve been around the “Reality TV” world for awhile – having auditioned for Biggest Loser and for More To Love. So I know that the show is all in the editing. I hope that the second episode shows the TRUE BEAUTY of the women – and not just the drama that I am sure is about to ensue based on the promos. Plus Size women have enough of a battle on hand in getting the rest of the world to take us SERIOUSLY – as intelligent, creative, beautiful people. We don’t need to be portrayed as weak and needy – and lacking confidence by a “Reality Show” that is far from “real”.

It’s funny how inspiration hits.  I was playing a silly game with my parents today online – the wonders of the internet allow us to play the same game even though we live on opposite coasts.  It’s called Farm Town – and while the game isn’t the point of my post – it is the reason FOR the post.

In Farm Town you can have your own little virtual farm.   You can take several different strategies in moving up in levels to achieve a profitable farming operation.  Some choose to utilize every square inch of their farm land {like my son John} for crops.  This way the money and experience points come rolling in.  While others {like me} chose to work on their design skills and create an aesthetically pleasing farm.  We  concentrate on placement of buildings and trees, utilize the flowers, and then create pretty pastures for our crops to grow in.  The FOR PROFIT farmer plants the crop that will give them the highest NET profit.   The FOR PRETTY farmer will plant crops in a decorative fashion – grouping according to plant style, color, harvest schedule.

My dad said to me today – “follow the money”.   I replied – “I opt for pretty.”

It was at that second I realized how I’ve led my life this way.  During my Life Coaching class I learned one of my core values – my core beliefs – was beauty.  It lends itself to my creative side where I try to make things look good.  Last night as I was leaving work the PT-Key holder {aka sort of like a manager without the pay} said that I had a good idea for a display.  I explained to her it’s one of the things I love most about retail – the merchandising aspect.  When putting out the new clothes I wanted the display to look attractive.  I opted for pretty.

The one big difference I have with many others … well … I don’t have this need to follow the money.  I build up my savings slowly – making sure there’s just enough.  I like to purchase the pieces of flare that make life enjoyable NOW rather than waiting for that rainy day to come.    And while I know that my house might be a little big for me .. I’m enjoying every second of making it in to MY HOME.  It’s not just a house … an investment.  It’s a little slice of heaven for me.  And I enjoy making it pretty.

If there’s one lesson in life that I could teach my son, nieces and nephews is that it’s OK for us to be different.  You can follow the money if thats what you want to do – building your fortune as fast as you can.    Or you can chose to acquire your wealth in other measures – and opt for the pretty instead.

I have a device set up on my blog called Site Meter – that tells me what sort of things on my web site are being read.  It’s a marketing tool really to see what attracts people to your blog so that you can keep on writing about the same stuff.  For me it’s a way to get to know my readers … see where they come from … what key words brought them to my site via a google  search …. and where they landed on the blog.   It’s FUN to see how diverse the reading audience is … and what topics interest all of you.

But what drives me absolutely totally bonkers is when people do a specific Google search using my full real name, the words “Willos Web” and then my pseudo name “Willo Keays”.    I’m going nuts right now trying to figure out who is cyber-stalking me!    AND … to make things MORE mysterious … the same person is looking for past members of my old chat room – The Rumor Mill.  They’re doing a specific search on the people who chatted with me while we were casting for one of the reality shows.    BUT WHY?  Why are they looking for us?

And what’s even MORE funny is that this particular reality show just announced they were casting for their 9th Season … so when you stop to think about it you have to wonder … is this particular stalker a Casting Director for the show?  And why are they so interested in all of those folks from the Rumor Mill?

AND WHAT’S MOST IMPORTANT … why do I still care?!  UGH!!

Every time I think I’m over that part of my life – I get sucked in again.   I love a good mystery – just ask my mom.  We’re having a ton of fun trying to figure out who the killer is on “Harper’s Island” this summer.  So this latest cyber-stalking stint is hitting that desire to solve the mystery.  And I can’t!

Here’s what I do know .. this person is logging in from the same IP several times a day.  The IP is not registered – or it’s a hidden registry.  A second IP is registering in from Bainbridge Island, WA and the third is a familiar one from Boyton Beach, FL.  This 3rd one ALWAYS appears during casting for this particular show.  Search words used are “willos web”  “willo keays”  specific other user names from the Rumor Mill, and a search for another weight loss support group that formed from the Rumor Mill.

Whatever information this person is looking for – they’re obviously not finding it.  The Rumor Mill is long gone, all information from that time in my life has been removed from the blog, and I’m no where near interested in going through yet another gut wrenching round of “We totally love you … you’re still in the running … we’ll present you to the producer” just to be let down in the end.

So I guess I have to ask this cyber stalker to either send me a private note asking what you’re looking for … or to please leave me alone.  I’d like to move on from all of that nonsense … and you’re making it quiet difficult!